Being an emotional person is hard work, let me tell you.
For the past couple of weeks I've been in total LA mode. I couldn't wait to get back up there and finally feel like I am living in one place for a long period of time. I drove back and forth this summer because my job was in LA while my rent-free home was in Orange County and it was completely different than I expected. I thought it would be easy. No biggie. I was only driving up there twice a week after all and Baby Car gets unreal gas mileage. I had no idea how tiring driving is. And how inconvenient packing and unpacking an overnight suitcase can be. And how much I hate sliding my card at the gas pump. Needless to say, I am ready. Ready to be in my apartment, with everything unpacked, and cooking my own food in my own kitchen.
That was until tonight.
Tonight is when I hit what I like to call the "reality wall".
And boy did I hit it hard.
I had to say goodbye to Katie, Brandon, and my sweet baby E and wasn't sure the next time I would see them. While, yes, I will only be living an hour away, I will be a full time student with an internship and a part time job. Extra time will be like an endangered species my life. It's rough leaving an amazing family like mine. I love my parents and siblings to death and while I am definitely in the right place up at school, it's always hard realizing that I have, yet again, taken my time with them this summer for granted. Realizing I won't be able to meet up with Katie every day I have off just to hang out. Or I won't get to see Ty start his senior year of high school as Senior Class President. Or I can't come home from a long day and watch Law & Order with my mom or American Idol with my dad. While these are all silly, little things, they feel huge in my life. They are what make my family so special and uniquely mine.
Gosh. Told you I was a sap.
So to make it easier for me (or harder, I haven't really decided yet) I want to show you the top material things I will miss most about my OC home.
1. My boyfriend
2. My big bed (How am I supposed to starfish on a twin!?)
3. Closet space
4. Counter space
5. A shower with water pressure
6. A stocked refrigerator
7. DVR
8. Netflix on the Wii
9. A washer and dryer I don't have to scrape up quarters for
Yeah I was wrong, I feel worse now.
Here's to moving out...again. Our relationship is definitely on the rocks.
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